Welcome Josie Mae

 October 20, 2015 We welcomed this sweet little one into the world and our family.

Josie Mae Kelly

7 lbs. 5 oz. 20" long

To say the girls were excited was an understatement.

I still can't believe we have three little girls running around this house now.

Clara LOVES to tell us that she isn't little. She's a big sister! 

And she couldn't be more proud of that fact.

(In fact she thinks she's my big sister. I can't seem to win that argument, so I gladly agree now.)

And Vivian, well she's kind of a baby hog. She wakes up super early asking to hold Josie. 

Who knew she would be such a great helper for me. It's been wonderful having her around to hold Josie so I can fill sippy cups, make lunch, etc.

We have LOVED having Josie Mae in our home! She is very sweet. So far she sleeps really good. (Fingers crossed. I'm just waiting for it to turn, because we have never had such a calm baby before.)

I won't lie we have also had some growing pains within the family, trying to find our new places in life. But it's been so wonderful bringing her sweet spirit into our home and family.

Now the real question. What color hair and eyes will she have? So far she has Miles coloring. 

But time will tell. It's always a surprise around here.

It's A Girl's World Around Here

A couple weeks ago we went in for our ultrasound. At first we weren't going to find out the gender of this baby, but to be honest I've had a hard time connecting with this baby. I also had a hard time connecting with Clara when we unexpectedly found out we were pregnant with her just right after Miles passing. Actually it was even harder for me to connect with her. It was just too much for me to take on at that time. But God and Miles knew that we needed her and so it was.

To be honest ever since losing Miles I've had a hard time connecting and getting too excited when I'm pregnant. It's a strange thing, even I can't describe it. I suppose it's hard to want to get too attached and give more of my heart away when it's just so broken and frozen solid for lack of a better way to describe it. It's not that I don't love my living children, I truly do, with all my heart! It's just that my heart is in such a locked position and is so hurt, so fragile and tender it's complicated to say the least.

Mark and I truly debated about having a fourth child. We wondered if we were mentally ready for another child and the challenges it brings. But we knew in our hearts that our family wasn't complete yet, and there were more sweet spirits that needed to come into our family. Besides, to put it all out there, I'm not sure I will ever fully be mentally healthy again. There are just too many things I struggle with daily and will forever more. I'm truly a changed person because of all that I have been through. How could you not be?But I do know that I am capable physically and mentally to handle more sweet children. It's just a matter of letting go of some things and accepting the new me. Even though, I don't know and understand this person at times.

So here we are....half way through this pregnancy. I have to say I have been very sick and completely exhausted this pregnancy. But things are going well. Most importantly the baby is healthy and both Vivian and Clara are beyond excited to welcome this sweet little baby girl into our family. Yep....another Kelly GIRL. 

I won't lie, I cried the whole way home from my ultrasound. I thought for sure it would be a boy. Oh how my heart aches to have another boy running around this house. To have a child that longs to watch Lightning McQueen and Toy Story. Sure the girls like those movies, but not like Miles did.

But I trust in God's plan for me and for my family. I truly believe that this sweet girl is meant to be in our family and will play an important part in our family. I love the thought of her and Miles bonding in Heaven right now. Him teaching her all the things she needs to know and telling her wonderful stories about our family. We can't wait to meet her. Now the question is what color eyes and hair will she have? We seem to have the craziest mix in our family. I'm totally expecting a platinum blonde girl. I guess only time will tell. The end of October seems so far away still.

Introducing.....

Clara Amy Kelly

Born July 1, 2013

6 lbs. 15 oz. and 19" long

She is so sweet!

We are in love with her.

Clara came into the world at the same time her brother Miles left this world.

They are already connected in so many ways.

Vivian adores Clara!

She is already loving being a big sister and loves helping out.

Clara is so lucky to have a loving big sister and an angel brother watching over her!

Some sweet friends brought balloons to the hospital to release so we could have a part of 

Miles with us on Clara's birthday.

Clara and I watched from our window.

It was so sweet and thoughtful.

It meant the world to us!

What a special day for our family.

We are so blessed to have such beautiful special children!

Thank you Clara for coming into our lives.

We look forward to make many memories with you sweetheart.

More Pink Please

It seems we need more pink around here.
Yes, we are having another little girl.
(But we may need some blue shoe once in awhile too.)
We are very happy to welcome her into our home in July.

flowers, bows, ribbons, tights and more

 as of May 14th we are going to be in need of these adorable booties....

that's right folks

we just found out today that we are expecting a girl

we couldn't be more excited!!